Tabu says she has been struggling with herself for almost a decade now, trying to understand who she is, what she stands for, and how she wants to live. The critically-acclaimed actress says she has now realised that the answers lie in connecting with the world in a "much larger and deeper way".
"When you are younger, you want different things in life. I was 16 when I started in the industry. At that time, you don't know anything. You are just going with the flow. You are doing what everybody else is doing and just want to have fun. You are looking for chances to do whatever everyone else is doing. You like the fame, the attention and the dressing up," Tabu told IANS.
"With age and experience, your ambitions evolve. Some of them are fulfilled while you drop some. Then, you go to the next stage. Your priorities and things of significance change. What you want to stand for becomes clearer," added the 47-year-old.
She says she has been on a journey to find the pieces of the puzzle. "My struggle and my journey with myself in the past 10 years, has been to understand, 'what do I stand for?', 'who I am?', and 'how I want to live in the world?'. There has been a huge growth of what I want in life and what my expectations are. Some of my expectations can never be the way you want them to be, but you get a (clarity) about who you are and how you want to take yourself (ahead)," she said.
So what does she stand for? "It is very difficult (to say) because there are many things that I stand for. What I definitely want to push myself (for) is to connect with the world in a much larger and deeper way because that is what makes me feel alive. Whether it is through my films, work or anything else I do, it is important for me to maintain that connect with the world outside of my work also," she said.
Tabu says all her roles have shaped her as a person. "I am made out of my work. The characters I have played (have given me) tremendous belief in myself as an actor, and shaped me to be a creative person with the influences I carry. The directors I have worked with have altered my world view. They have introduced me to things I didn't know about culture, Kashmir, Shakespeare, relationships, deceit and also illicit relationship. My understanding of the world has increased," she said.
She will next be seen along with Saif Ali Khan in the coming-of-age story Jawaani Jaaneman. Tabu is also preparing for a comeback in Telugu films after a decade, with Allu Arjun's yet-untitled upcoming project.
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